What you see below was written five years ago. Today I update this from my apartment in Israel in my 4th year abroad. I no longer feel hopeless and full of despair but am still in need of daily doses of gratitude. As 2020 began to fade my spirit felt a bit musty, like a favorite shirt that has lived in a drawer too long--not moldy or mothy yet, but on its way. All it needs is a good wash, some fabric softener and some attention and my favorite shirt is back!
There is no better fabric softener for the soul than gratitude!
Finally, in the last few months, I was relieved of the hopelessness. I suddenly didn't go into great despair whenever I got frustrated.
Then, only a few days ago, I suddenly found myself very interested in living MY life. I was learning something from every encounter. I was no longer obsessed with trying to figure out what is wrong with me or what I'm doing wrong in this life.
I am no longer in survival mode!
Does anybody actually LIVE here? It's awesome! Suddenly I have tons of time on my hands; I feel motivated to achieve; I am fearless.
The joy I am experiencing at this new freedom is immeasurable and words are not working to explain it. The best I can do if share how grateful I am for each day.
I started posting on Facebook each day of this year, but then decided to commit to do this EVERY day this year.
Here we go...
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