Blessing #20 - I was wrong.

I thought today was going to totally suck.

And it did, until 8:05 when school started.

Then it was AWESOME!

•  my students were great
• I felt awesome once I started teaching
• I got to have coffee with a friend after work
• I got to hang out with more friends at a fun meeting tonight
• And now I will be in bed by 8:50.

Blessing for Day 19: This day is OVER!

My Day.

That's the best I've got today.  I'm so happy this day is over.

SO. HAPPY.

I've been in anxiety all day and I was more or less in survival mode all day.  My stomach burned with anxiousness no matter what I did.  My thoughts didn't really help.
Aside from the day being over, there were a few positive things I found to put on the "good" list for the day:

• I used to have anxious days like this every day.  i.e. I used to count the days that weren't  anxious.
• When these days used to come, the best I could do was stop crying, go home and go to bed.  Today I worked for 4 hours, met some friends, went to the gym and made myself dinner.  
• I called a friend and talked to her about it.  I used to be too ashamed of myself to ask a friend for help on days like this.
• I got 2 loads of laundry done.
• I'm going to take a shower before bed.
• I went to school and got my room prepped for tomorrow.
• I didn't have to be around people today.  Even though I was really lonely, it wasn't the kind of lonely that can be fixed by being around people....it's a God lonely.

This is what my insides felt like today.