I've fallen in love with myself!!!! Who knew?!?! I just found out this weekend! Details:
- The best part first: I felt like I belonged in the city I grew up in. I've never felt like that before in my life, not in Austin. I always felt awkward, uncomfortable and self-conscious there, no matter where I went. I wasn't granola enough to fit in downtown; yuppy enough to fit in in Westlake, rich enough to fit in downtown or pretty enough to fit in with any men.
All that is gone now! I finally figured out that the only person judging me was ME. A habit which has apparently ceased, because on this visit all of that old ick was gone. G. O. N. E. Gone. It's like I finally graduated from high school on an emotional level. Just 22 years late.More evidence of the best Valentine's Day EVER:
- I got to stay with the people who probably love me the most of anybody
- I was nice to the people who love me the most of anybody
- The idiosyncrasies in said people that used to, at every occurrence, used to drive me crazy, DID NOT BOTHER ME AT ALL! Not one bit. Did not hit the radar.
- I got to go to a UT basketball game with my dad.
- I got to go shopping with my mom
- I got a lot of great clothes on said shopping trip
- I got to fly over the Grand Canyon
- I got to kiss my brother and tell him, "I love you"
- I ate at a vegetarian restaurant allergen-free!
- I made a new friend (sandals man)
- I saw some old friends
- I saw some new friends
- I ran into an unexpected friend from high school
- I didn't watch one single episode of Gilmore Girls, and I didn't even think about it
- I got some schoolwork done on the plane today
- I was comfortable in my own skin the entire weekend
- I didn't lie to anyone, manipulate anyone, or hide anything from anyone
- I didn't feel ashamed of myself once
- I didn't feel self-conscious at all
- I experienced all three Austin seasons: winter, spring and fall
- I ran a 2 hour (ish) half marathon
- I got to have breakfast today with a friend
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